...so do we really ever just sit down and think about what is good about who we are? I find I focus so often on the things about myself that could be better, or things that I wish I could take back or change. I am rarely ever found to be pondering what it is about me that makes me awesome or appealing or attractive. I often feel like people can see through me and the walls I have built around my insecurities. I can't lie very well and I can't put on a front when I feel something. I wear my heart on my sleeve and show the world how I feel about anything, everything and most often how I feel about myself.
If I can't love myself or show myself off to the world with everything that I am worth how can I expect anyone else to be impressed with my qualities. If I try so hard to fake confidence and put myself out there with constant fear, how could my plan not be translucent? How could I possibly look legitimate?
I know there are those people out there who we always look at and think "WTF, how did they get to where they are? How did they get to that point". People getting married, or people having children, or people getting really great jobs...we tend to compare ourselves to them and figure out what it is that they have that we don't. And for me, these days the difference between those people and me is that they believe in themselves and are usually their own biggest fans. They don't fake it and they don't make excuses for those who don't believe in them.
I need a little bit more love in my life. Love from myself to myself that is. And maybe, just maybe will my love for myself attract the love and appreciation from others that I am really lacking...
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