...starting up a new, fresh blog because I am starting a new chapter of my life with a new and clean slate. I have less than five weeks left to work on my contract and then the move is on! I really should be working well in to November, but things just aren't going to end up that way. When I started here they knew I was planning on going back to school this fall - but seeing as none of their other applicants were qualified I guess I seemed appealing despite my intent to finish the contract early.
I have learned that a career in Long Term Care is probably not for me, even though the cash it has allowed me to put away is greatly appreciated :) I have learned from working here that to get somewhere in life and to be successful it takes hard work and dedication. Some of my coworkers understand that, while others either seem to struggle with the concept or are well aware but simply don't give a sh*t. You can't just show up at work and expect everything to work out well or for your day to be enjoyable. You can't expect to lock yourself up in your office, alienate your co-workers and still enjoy a cup of joe with them at 10:30. The workplace is a tough world, it is kind of like high school in a sense. There are the popular kids, the kids who wish they were as popular, the wanabes, and the workers. None of the categories co-mingle very well because everyone thinks they are more important than everybody else. Everyone believes that their program is more important or deserves special treatment. And, once anyone gets a little bit of power it seems to go right to their heads! It is like a mini society is formed with its own version of a caste system and everyone falls into place where the people at the top believe they belong. Everyone at the bottom hates the people at the top and the people at the top are usually too self-absorbed to realize it.
It would be easy to say that my experience hasn't been that great or that I have felt under-appreciated or under-utilized, but that just wouldn't really be what has been important over the last year. I think that this year of solid work experience has helped me to develop a better sense of who I am as an individual, as an employee, and as a young person who is striving to find a career that might satisfy me for the next 30 years of my life. I can be jealous all I want of those people who I believe haven't worked to earn anything or those who have been handed great job opportunities - but that will in no way benefit me and further my fight towards success and happiness. From now on, I must learn to count my blessings and realize that if someone hands me something without me having to earn it, it definitely won't mean as much as it would have if I had to bleed, sweat and cry all over it first.
This posting will be the first of many to come as I finish up this job, leave my hometown and begin a new professional degree in a new city at a new school. I find writing is a good way to get my feelings and true intentions out in to the atmosphere in times when my head is a little too full and jumbled. It is a good way to clear my thoughts and figure out exactly what needs to be said or done. For me it is also a good way to make myself feel better about the hard times and the best of times - knowing that I am just your average 20-something girl who just hasn't quite figured everything out yet...
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